Healing: Which is More Important?

The human experience can be frustrating, confusing, and feel downright cruel, but there are some things, positive things that remain constant.

There are threads in my own life that keep me connected, remind me how real God is, and they keep me humble.

I always wondered why when I received the deepest wounds from people that God would require me to apologize (first). It used to make me so angry because I could not understand why he would request something so insensitive when I was the one who was wronged. He does not always give you the why. Sometimes, he just requires obedience, so I would do the heart work and apologize with no expectations. Sometimes, I received a genuine apology in return, but in most cases, I received silence and confusion.

It was not until later that God asked me a question. What is more important, your apology and their admission of wrong or them experiencing my love for them?

I have been told that I love people well, that in some cases, I am the only person that they feel unconditional love from. For that, I take no credit, I am able to love people, even when they wound me, because of those moments of obedience. As I keep my heart in God's hands, he heals me and them to.

That is not to say I still have close relationships with those people. Most I do not. But I can see from a far that they continue to grow, they love those who are left better, and I am content with the connections and healthy relationships God has allowed to stay.

My prayer for you is that you recognize true healing, and wholeness comes not from the apology or admission of others but from a God who knows you and what you need. He loves you, and I hope you get to a place where that's enough. When his love is enough, you can receive love well from those who are left, and it creates space for new relationships.

This may not be how he leads you in relationships, but I can confirm the fruit of this posture is peace, joy, contentment, and a God ability to receive and give love freely.

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